Placenta Previa, Accreta, Increta, Percreta

I had no idea what this year had in store for me!  After my ultrasound in December and finding out I had a partial previa, I anxiously waited 6 weeks to see if it moved out of the way and up!  The placenta was implanted over my csection scar, anterior and a part of it was over the os which is the cervix or way out!  I had never heard of this before and after googling and researching the crap out of previa and accreta I was scared.  The MFM told me that they would watch for accreta, where the placenta grows through the lining of the uterus, usually where the csection scar is but it could happen with no scar, in future appts.  So the time came for the next appt and I took Eric.  My placenta had indeed stayed and got worse, a full previa and the line between the uterus and the placenta got blurred, a suspected accreta. How could this possibly happen?  I spent the first 4 months of this pregnancy looking for a supportive 2vba2c and I had found one and now this??  How can someone who has unbelievably beautifull fast births have this happen :(  Another csection and possibly a csection hysterectomy!  All I could think of from my past was hearing my midwife say I had scant bleeding after my hbac, I was build to have babies and my surgeon with my breech tell me I hardly had scar tissue!  What the hell!!!  Over the next few weeks I was on pins and needles hoping beyond hope this placenta would move as my belly grew, and this would be a non issue by the next appt.  That didn't happen.  Instead, it got worse and they scheduled an MRI to rule out a percreta which is when the placenta grows out into and beyond the uterus and in my case into my bladder!  I was in disbelief.  I had no bleeding or spotting.  I had no symptoms!  I was quite lucky as a lot of woman with this condition bleed and gush and spot throughout the pregnancy.  I was on pelvic rest and taking it easy.  Not an easy task for a mom of 5!  My MRI showed I had a probable (not 100%) accreta, but I still held out hope!  They told me my csection would most likely happen around 34-35 weeks and to expect NICU time of around 2 weeks for the baby!  THE BABY.. geez here we are having a baby girl and no one knew until around 22 weeks and we couldn't celebrate because of the gloom and doom of the pregnancy.  She was at risk and I was at risk and if I had a bleed it could be bad bad bad bad for both of us :(  Happy last pregnancy!  I think I'll blog more about this later!

Big Year

Wow!  I can't believe how long it's been since my last entry!  It's been quite a mixed few years.  I was just thinking about 2013.. I didn't write much at all.  I had a melanoma that was found early and cut out and that was terrifying!  I mean I had moles and weird skin stuff my whole life.  My first was found when I was 27, a basil cell melanoma.  They found a few more and I always had them removed over the years.  Its funny because I never look at my back, but one day I was standing outside the shower and I was putting coconut oil on my back and where my bra line usually is I saw this mole that looked a bit odd that I never noticed before.  It was different shades and kind of looked like there were dots in the middle.  I made an appt asap and Dr. Long looked at it and called me a week later and said it was an early melanoma!  Well, I immediately was devastated as I was told I just had chocolate chip skin with unusual non scary moles by my last dermatologist.  My bf's husband past away from melanoma the year before and it was fresh on my mind.  I went to the surgery consult and the surgeon took it off right then and I have a nice 7 inch incision that was not pleasant to feel.  They kept numbing and cutting and it was a very painful process.  I hope to never have another!!!!  Tests results show I am clear now, but unfortunately yearly or 6 month mole checks are in my future..
Riley went to Kindergarten and just didn't love it, he missed home so much we decided to take him out after Thanksgiving and homeschool him! That's been quite entertaining!  Its exciting but scary and sad too!  I love having him home, but my public school mind hopes he is not missing out on making friends and doing special things.  But then when I really think about it.. how special is the fact that the two best friends are home all day learning and clowning around each other still!!!! I love it!
The last thing this year brought was more grief.  My cousin Bonnie passed away and this just broke my heart as well as the family and her family.   She was a very beautiful, sweet and good natured person who I wanted to be like when I grew up!  It was quite a shock and I just think of my poor Aunt and Uncle and Bonnie's children everyday!
 The biggest best news of 2013 was that we found out we were pregnant!  We also found out we had a placenta previa, which is when the placenta is blocking the way out :/  So, I left the ultrasound office with that bit of news which became a huge deal later and a little envelope with the baby's gender in it!  I had Eric open it at home and the look on his face told me everything I wanted to hear..It's a GIRL!!!! That's right!  In 2014 we would become the parents of a new storm!!!!!!!  YIPPPPPPPPPYYYYY!!!!!!! 2013 was definitely a mixed bag!

Goodbye 2012..

2012 was one of those years filled with emotions, thankfully, rarely felt.  It started out just fine, but turned out to be the worst year of my life..ever...ever..  I hope to never see the likes of it again..  We experienced an unexpected, but preventable accident involving my sweet little, then 4 year old, that has changed our lives forever. He turned 5 in November and is just as active, funny and lovable as ever thankfully!  It is still really hard for me to get over.  I have at many times tried to post about it, but I just can't yet.  Children are remarkably great at adapting.  

We lost my bff's husband Craig, who lost his battle with skin cancer.  He left behind a fiesty little 3 year old named Paityn who is featured in some of my posts.  I love her and her momma!  It's so hard to see someone so young pass!  We lost our Aunt Mary and Uncle Bill.  They lived long lives, but I wished I would have gotten to know Uncle Bill more or visited Aunt Mary more.  She was a fabulous greek woman who made awesome food!

We also lost our 14 year old cat that drowned in our swimming pool on a cold winters day. Poor kitty, what a terrible ending to such a good life!  We were touched by a hurricane and a pick up truck's wheel flew off and hit my husband and children who were stopped in our Honda, Civic at a stop sign and I was rear ended in Buffalo with my sister, cousin and both of our 1 year olds!  Luckily, no one was hurt and everything can and will be replaced or fixed.  

My heart aches and my mind races and I am full of regret and sorrow at least a few times every day.  I hear that gets better with time...

I guess I should reflect on the good things that happened.. Liam turned 1, what a little sweetheart!  He is really the cutest little guy!  We created a great garden.. Chelsea experienced London, Spain and Italy.  I think she had a great time, however sometimes you can't see that until a certain time passes.  Unfortunately, she hated the weather which can really influence one's mood... I don't know from experience or anything :)  My sister and I went on a sister/baby trip to visit our cousin in Buffalo, NY.  We went to Niagara and my oh my had a hilarious time with the Japanese paparazzi! So there was a few and I am sure a few more I can't remember at the moment.. I need to find the time to blog more so not only can I remember the great things, but my children can revisit them in the future :) OK that is sort of my resolution.. maybe 2 posts a month... but back to 2012.. goodbye ..thanks for the lessons..

I am hoping 2013 brings a sense of peace to our family.. and nothing bad!  I really need a break please!

Catching up 1

Well this summer definitely did not go as planned.. A horrible accident left us shell shocked and sad. Our little boys and girl are such sweet gifts! Children are so adaptable and amazing little creatures.. They make me want to get out of bed, brush myself off and move along! So with that in mind I am posting what I didn't post all summer. The not so sad times..

Miss Paityn's Camero

Let's eat some strawberries!

The garden!

This year we built raised beds and attempted square foot gardening! We had loads of tomatoes, peppers, kale, herbs, and my new found favorite garden plant.. Lemon Verbena! Oh the scent! I planted three lavender plants. Hopefully they will come back next year. I finally planted all 10 of our blueberry bushes. May their roots run deep and wide!

Eric building the beds

A little Liam imp eating grape tomatoes!

He looks like a cabbage patch doll he is so cute! In the Lemongrass..

 Those are my Dill seeds up close! Straw walkways worked out nicely!

The End!

Littles room redo!

Building bunkbeds, a Quinn bed, closet redo and painting! We aren't finished yet..but this is what we have so far!

Michael's graduation!

Michael graduated from HS...and moved to NY.. He was missed all summer :(